I have written in the past, and it is contained in the Recipe for Recovery, the meditations, affirmations, and prayers that were part of my recovery. On the issue of fear, I have explained how I gave away fear to God, which I use as a reference point for everybody to include the Higher Power, the Divine, the Greater Consciousness, the Universe…whoever or whatever it is that you reach for when you need help from some power greater than yourself. Recently, a gentleman explained to me that he has no sense of something Greater so he has no sense of the ability to give away his fear. Here is where things went.
I asked him to envision being in a small boat in the middle of the ocean and suddenly it starts taking on water from a hole in the bottom.
“What do you do?” I asked.
“I start bailing water.” He replied.
“Why are you bailing water?”
“Because I do not want to sink and drown.”
“Oh. Well let me ask you this? ‘If you do not want to sink and drown, is that because you realize you are worth it?'”
He paused. Then he smiled. And then he said, “That must be so. Apparently I do feel I am worth it.”
I then explained that he needed to bail like he had expressed, like his life depended on it…because it did. And I explained that he would not just sink and drown, the quick and easy way. No, too easy. You see, there is a shark called Parkinson’s swimming around the boat, so if the boat sinks, Parkinson’s gets him, and life will be very unpleasant. Bailing faster than the water is coming in is the key to survival.
And, he is not bailing water…he is bailing fear and FEAR and negative thoughts and self-doubts and self-criticisms, and they keep coming and coming and coming…relentlessly. So he needs to keep bailing and bailing and bailing…RELENTLESSLY!
Oh, yes, and the boat is actually a vessel, and the vessel is your heart. And you need to bail out your heart from fear and FEAR and negative thoughts and self-doubts and self-criticisms. Then you can fix the leak at the bottom of the vessel and you can have compassion for the rotten wood on the floor and feel love and joy as you varnish the teak, and feel compassion for the water-logged seats and feel happiness as you bring them to a state of repair. This is how you fill your heart with compassion and forgiveness and love and peace and joy and happiness. Only then can you re-open the valve on your dopamine faucet and let your dopamine flow. Only then will you reach full recovery.
And as you repair your vessel and fix everything so that your vessel is in mint condition like the day it was born and put on the showroom floor, the old-you is gone, and the new-you-essence-of-who-you-were-the-day-you-were-born, is liberated from Parkinson’s and feels the freedom of a Parkinson’s-free life…full recovery.
Here is a reminder of how I gave away the fear and negative thoughts:
“I adopted the following prayer for when I felt negative thoughts or fears coming into the forefront of my thoughts: ”Dear God, I have this fear and I do not have time for it to bring me down. I need to stay focused on positive thoughts. You are in a much better position than me to deal with negative thoughts and fears, so I am giving you this negative thought and fear and thank you for taking care of it for me.” The first day I did this, it must have been 100 times I repeated this phrase. After four or five days, the negative thoughts and fears diminished, and then they went away.”
With today’s post, you now have an additional way to get rid of fear and FEAR and negative thoughts and self-doubts and self-criticisms.
What are you waiting for? Start giving away the fear and bailing your boat while you still have the strength to do it!
I know you can do this!
You are worth it!!!
All my best,