Thirty months symptom free. It is hard to imagine that 2 and 1/2 years have gone by since waking up on the morning of June 12, 2010 with no Parkinson’s. I am grateful. I am happy. I am inspired by all of you.
Happiness is a wonderful thing. In my recovery, I had to learn to be happy from my heart. In exploring my happiness, or lack thereof, with my Parkinson’s self, I realized that my happiness, in many ways, had become an intellectual pursuit; it came from my mind and involved external factors.
My happiness, in many ways, came as a result of avoiding conflict, or by doing something and somebody saying “thank you” or “good job.” This not only lacks fulfillment, but it also feeds into the Parkinson’s fear-driven-Adrenaline-Mode-mind. The mind never stops trying to calculate how to avoid every potential conflict and how to make everybody else happy so they will say “thank you” or “good job.” And, we are not even on our list of people to make happy.
I had an awareness in my recovery, an awareness that came as a result of finding again the connection from my Inner Divine to the Higher Power Divine, an awareness that said, “You need to be happy on the inside…from your heart. And, it is not selfish.”
This awareness gave me the insight to understand that being happy was part of being alive and living life to the fullest. Being happy from the heart opens the Dopamine faucet and allows our Dopamine to flow, which is necessary for our Parkinson’s recovery.
Happiness should not be governed by Parkinson’s symptoms. Then, you are living your Parkinson’s instead of living your life. That type of happiness looks like this: “Today my symptoms appear a little better, so I am happy. Today my symptoms appear a little worse, so I am fearful, angry, frustrated, worried, and anxious that I am getting worse.” Do not let your symptoms control your life this way.
Make a different choice…CHOOSE HAPPINESS! Yes, happiness is a choice. Look at it this way: Everything in the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery™ is there to get you better, so if you are doing the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery™, you are getting better! Know this and live this! When your symptoms appear worse, look at them and smile, and know in your heart that although they may appear worse, you actually are getting better.
When you choose happiness and know in your heart that you are getting better no matter what your symptoms are doing that day, your Parkinson’s becomes less important and your living your life to the fullest becomes more important.
Each time you choose happiness, your heart opens a little more.
Each time you choose happiness, your Dopamine faucet opens a little more.
Each time you choose happiness, your smile gets a little bigger.
Each time you choose happiness, your sense of your recovery grows stronger.
We have many choices in life. I choose happiness. It is the same choice I have been making daily for a little over 30 months. It is the choice that will help set you free.
Choose happiness from your heart.
You are worth it!!!
All my best,