Fighting Parkinson’s, and prayer revisited…again

I discuss Parkinson’s recovery as a soul, mind, and body healing. The Parkinson’s body is not hard to define: symptoms ranging from tremors to rigidity to slowness, etc. The Parkinson’s mind is not hard to define: emotions ranging from fear to worry to anger to frustration to anxiety, etc. The Parkinson’s soul is not not hard to define: feelings ranging from despair to hopelessness to loss of faith. So, how do we overcome these Parkinson’s obstacles? First, heal the soul…and the mind and the body will follow!

How do we heal our soul? Faith. Faith is knowing you will recovery from Parkinson’s. And with this faith of knowing your will recover from Parkinson’s, you take action to heal your body and heal your mind. Faith in your recovery is where you start, and it is something you need to keep close to you during the hardest days on your journey toward recovery.

Here is what I had to say about faith and prayer one year ago today in “Fighting Parkinson’s, and prayer revisited:”

“I view prayer more as praise and gratitude. I have spent years waking up early and using the quiet time for spiritual growth. I give praise and gratitude to God and do not ask for anything. Many people with whom I have spoken over the years view prayer as that time in life when they sit down and ask God for whatever it is they need at that time. My beliefs are faith based, I give praise and gratitude with an unshakable faith that if I proceed through life that way, then I can accept what happens because it is supposed to happen even if I cannot quite understand it at the time. And then I do my best to take responsibility for what comes next based upon what has occurred.

Parkinson’s shakes one’s foundation, and it is faith that got me through. Every day that I did my exercises and energy work and chanting and acupressure, it was with the faith that I would get better some time in the future. This faith was very important because it kept me on the path to healing my physical body and organs from deep within even though I rarely noticed much physical progress.

At one point, a friend pointed out that fear and negative thoughts are a constant battle with the disease. Although I had a very positive attitude that some day I would recover, fighting the disease mentally and spiritual was a daily war. My friend pointed out that God was in a much better position to handle my fears and negative thoughts and that I needed to give them away so I could stay focused on my recovery.

I meditated on this and adopted the following prayer for when I felt negative thoughts or fears coming into the forefront of my thoughts: ”Dear God, I have this fear and I do not have time for it to bring me down. I need to stay focused on positive thoughts. You are in a much better position than me to deal with negative thoughts and fears, so I am giving you this negative thought and fear and thank you for taking care of it for me.” The first day I did this, it must have been 100 times I repeated this phrase. After four or five days, the negative thoughts and fears diminished, and then they went away.

I tell you often to repeat, “I have the power to heal myself.” Part of this is the understanding that “myself” is not an island unattached to God and nature and humanity. It takes a firmly rooted core of faith to do the same process every day for months and see little or no improvement of the disease. But the body needs to be healing so the prayers and meditations and affirmations become one with the body…soul, mind, body healing.

The medical profession says that with Parkinson’s, dopamine is depleted in one’s brain and the basal ganglia controlling movement are 60-80% dead. Having lived in a Parkinson’s body and thought with a Parkinson’s mind, and held my firm faith with a Parkinson’s soul, I can tell you they are incorrect. It is why after nearly 200 years, they are no closer to a cure than when they started. Parkinson’s is an electrical problem and they are trying to fix it with chemicals. The dopamine is there, but the flow is interrupted. Adrenaline has taken over, which ultimately leads to dopamine taking a back seat. Just like anything else, after years of operating in adrenaline mode, the dopamine just turns off the faucet. I tell you this because prayer opens it up.

Prayer may not be the correct word, but I believe you will understand with this explanation. After about 8 months of fighting the disease and healing from deep within, I read about the possible adrenaline/dopamine relationship to Parkinson’s. Here is what I did. I would pray/meditate like this: “Hello Adrenaline. Thank you for all of the years you have run my body. Without you in charge, I would not have survived. However, all of life’s stresses that required you do be in charge are gone, and you can take a break and you do not need to run my whole body anymore. Hello Dopamine. It has been a long time. Thank you for all of those years you stayed closed and allowed Adrenaline to run my body. I appreciate that you understood it was for survival. Now that those stresses are gone, I need you to flow again. The thing is, I do not know how much Adrenaline needs to shut down and how much Dopamine needs to flow to achieve the correct mix. The two of you need to figure this out with God, and I am going to meditate on something else so I do not get in the way.”

Within a couple of weeks, my symptoms started melting away. I could feel Dopamine coming out of my brain like a fountain spraying. Near the end, I added the following one night before going to bed: ”Dear God, I surrender my ego to you. I surrender my attachment to my Parkinson’s Disease to you. I am not afraid anymore. I no longer fear Parkinson’s. I no longer fear the scorn I may face by being cured from a disease the experts say there is no cure. I no longer fear the people who may say I was misdiagnosed or that I faked having the disease. I am surrendering my ego to you, that part of me that felt I needed to remain attached to Parkinson’s because the experts say once you have Parkinson’s you always have Parkinson’s. I am forgetting about my old self (Parkinson’s) and stepping into my new self (No Parkinson’s).” I awoke the following morning with my remaining symptoms gone.

That was June 12, 2010, and I remain symptom free today.”

And I remain symptom free today as well.

For those of you struggling with the faith issue, or those who lack a sense of God or Higher Power or Greater Consciousness, I offer another way to deal with giving away fear — you need to bail it it from your boat because you have sprung a leak and fear is filling your vessel. From October 2012, here is Fighting Parkinson’s, and bailing fear from your boat.

Faith defeats fear every time. Healing my soul was a continuous part of my recovery, and my faith grew daily. Each day as I worked to heal my mind and body, I talked to my Higher Power and felt a connection that instilled in me the continuing strength to persevere. I call it true faith.

True faith is doing what you are doing each day even if you cannot see measurable physical improvements in your symptoms.
True faith is doing what you are doing each day even if other people are telling you that you look worse.
True faith is doing what you are doing each day knowing that full recovery will be yours some day.
True faith is doing what you are doing each day without worrying about when you will reach your full recovery.
True faith is doing what you are doing each day feeling joy in the “doing” because you have realized you are worth it!

Ultimately, I learned that my body was the one who had symptoms and that my mind was the one who had fears and negative emotions, but that I was not my body and I was not my mind. I am my soul, the one who has healed into something I cannot describe in words. I am happy. It is not something I can put into words…I am happy for no reason at all…just happy…from the inside.

So, say it now, “I have the power to heal myself.” And repeat it as many times as you need to until you know it, until you feel it deep inside, until you own it in your soul. And do not let go of it as you continue to do the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery™ and heal your body and your mind.

What are you waiting for?
“I have the power to heal myself.”
“I have the power to heal myself.”
“I have the power to heal myself.”

You are worth it!!!

All my best,



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7 Responses to Fighting Parkinson’s, and prayer revisited…again

  1. Marilyn Murray says:

    thanks for the email this morning Howard. It pretty much summarizes what is necessary for healing; the physical part is easy to explain but the mind and soul are not – I really like the way you have said it so now i have a copy for friends who want to know what I am really doing. You are tireless, thank you for your dedication and will see you in Victoria. Marilyn

  2. Dear, dear Howard…..the words that resonate most for me in today’s post are these, “Ultimately, I learned that my body was the one who had symptoms and that my mind was the one who had fears and negative emotions, but that I was not my body and I was not my mind. I am my soul”.

    I am my soul and my work in life is remembering this…. living this ….. and I will be gentle with myself as I do so for there is something both very vulnerable and immensely powerful in our humanness. I am very grateful for this journey, for your support and love, and for the support and love of our community.

  3. john gold says:

    Thank you for your continued inspiration. Slowly I’m integrating more and more of the recipe. Part of my recovery is learning to trust, as my faith garners results. I am learning to “let go!” more deeply. And recently, I’ve discovered a greater embodiment of my yang nature, as well. I remember, Howard, where you said that sometimes you would finish some exercises in a pool of sweat. I have been allowing myself to be very uncomfortable as I move forward in faith, acceptance, trust, and “bliss-ciplined” effort. Thank you for your support, even when embodiment lags intellect. Your guidance reveals at the right time.

  4. Gita says:

    What a powerful message! The words that resonate most for me are ” I can accept what happens because it is supposed to happen even if I cannot quite understand it at the time.” This has neen a very powerful and healing mantra for me!

  5. Melanie says:

    Thank you all for the strength in your words, I look so forward to reading them, and thank you Howard for you never ending support. I know I can do this too, because you and a few others have proven it is possible, not easy, but doable and definitely worth the effort. I feel the healing going on inside the iceberg. 🙂

  6. Pat in FL says:

    The part that resonated with me is: ““I have the power to heal myself.” Part of this is the understanding that “myself” is not an island unattached to God and nature and humanity.”
    I have often grappled with proclaiming “I have the power to heal myself”, knowing the following words from the Bible:
    “Don’t you realize I have power either to free you or to crucify you?” (spoken by Pilate the Roman governor.)
    Jesus answered, “You would have no power over me if it were not given to you from above.”
    [Parenthesis mine.]
    Once again, Howard, in clarifying this mantra, embraces what I know to be true.
    So I thank you, Howard, for the wisdom you consistently give out.

  7. Howard says:

    Thank you to all of you. I have faith in your recoveries, and I am happy to see that each of you, in a way that is personal and meaningful to you, recognizes that yes, you do have faith in your recovery. Your True Faith will defeat Parkinson’s every time!

    Love and blessings,

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