In my last post, I wrote a bit more about medications. As all of you know, the medications help with symptoms, have many side effects (some that are identical to Parkinson’s symptoms, and some that are often mistaken for Parkinson’s symptoms), and never have cured anybody from the disease. In fact, their purpose is to assist with symptoms…that is all. Current Parkinson’s “treatment” is management of the disease. If you want to be cured of Parkinson’s, you have to realize that you are your own cure. Yes, the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery is your road map of a cure, but you have to do the Recipe — this means that you are your own cure!
Being responsible for being your own cure is daunting for some people. We have become reliant upon others to “cure” us from our maladies, so when the others say, “There is no cure for your Parkinson’s,” what other choice do we have? We either accept what the others say that we cannot be cured, or we say, “I refuse to accept the status quo. I have the power to heal myself…and I will!” This make you your own cure.
In the beginning of my journey after I had researched Parkinson’s, I knew a handful of important things:
1. When my mother died two-and-one-half years prior to me getting the disease, she was mostly in a wheel-chair, had a nurse-caregiver as well as my dad as a caregiver, and she had lost her mind to the medications three years prior to losing her life.
2. The medications had taken my mother’s mind, and they had not prevented her from reaching wheel-chair-bound physical disability.
3. The liver was deeply malfunctioning as well as the kidneys.
With all of this in mind, I knew medications were not for me. That was my choice. My fear was not Parkinson’s. My fear was not creating my own path. My fear was the known path…my mother’s treatment path, which is the current medical standard treatment path for Parkinson’s.
So, I sat down with Sally. I outlined my treatment plan (the Recipe) and told her I knew I would fully recover. However, I did add this to the conversation: “Even though I have complete faith and I know in my heart I will recover some day, if I am wrong and the doctors are right, then at the end of the path, I think I will be completely paralyzed.” Sally’s response was instant, and it was simple: “It is just a body. You won’t lose your mind like your mother, so I won’t lose you. If you can tolerate what the disease dishes out to you, I am all in.” And off the cliff we went into the abyss. That was nearly four years ago.
I share this with you so what I am going to tell you next will make sense. With Plan A only, I was forced to see the silver lining in every cloud. That was not my normal way of being. However, the normal-way-of-being-Howard is the guy who got Parkinson’s, so thinking and acting outside of what had been my norm seemed like a good idea. I recommend it to all of you.
Make it a game for yourself. I will provide you some examples of what I mean, and you all are bright enough to run with it from there:
1. Pain. If I had pain in an area where I previously felt nothing, instead of being angry about the pain or fearful of what it might mean (i.e. Parkinson’s getting worse — isn’t that what every change in your symptoms you do not like ultimately adds up to in your mind?), I would say something like, “This is great! Pain means that the electricity is flowing from my brain to the part of my body that hurts or I would not be experiencing pain. This must mean all that stuff in my brain that the doctors say is dead is not really dead.”
2. Stiffness, fatigue, and slowness. “My body is using my available energy to open blockages, so it is making me more stiff and fatigued and slower than usual. It will improve when the blockages are opened. This is great!”
3. Increased tremors. “Wonderful. Tremors are created when electricity hits blockages or escapes from the protective neural covering. Increased tremors means I am creating more energy in my low-energy brain, so I shake more. This is great!”
I think you get the point. Everything was “great!” Why? First, because that is exactly what was happening in my body. Second, because even if it was not exactly what was happening in my body, I had Plan A only, no Plan B, so fear of Parkinson’s was a luxury I could not afford. I forced myself to find something “great!” about whatever was going on.
In the end, I must have been correct…apparently, there was nothing to be afraid of and everything that was happening was “great!” I was my own cure.
I know, some of you are thinking, “Howard may not have taken medications, but he sounds like he still lost his mind.” True. In a way, I did lose my mind…I had to follow the quote I have on my home page:
“Sometimes you have to lose your mind before you come to your senses.”
-Socrates, Dan Millman’s Way of the Peaceful Warrior-
Here is the mind I had to lose. I had to lose my Adrenaline-mode mind. I had to lose my I-need-to-do-everything-perfectly mind. I had to lose my I-need-to-be-in-control mind. I had to lose my you-are-not-worth-it mind. I had to lose my It-is-not-okay-to-like-yourself-or-love-yourself mind. When I lost that mind, then, and only then, did I completely come to my senses. The whole world changed. Actually, all that had changed was me. I started viewing the world from my heart, and there I have stayed.
Be your own cure!
Each and every one of you has it within you to cure yourself. Challenge yourself or make it a game — focus on positive thoughts, focus on silver linings. If you do this, you will begin to feel it. Once you feel it, you will realize how good it feels. Once you realize how good it feels, you will want to do it again and again and again.
And then, one day, you will awaken and say, “Wow, I must have been correct…apparently, there was nothing to be afraid of and everything that was happening was “great!” I was my own cure.” That will be a day you will remember forever.
The Parkinson’s Cure. Be it!
You are worth it!!!
All my best,