This week, I spoke with many people and received many emails regarding my post Fighting Parkinson’s, and fear…and FEAR. What I learned is that for the most part, when we drilled down to the real fear, it was not fear that the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery® did not work or would not work for them, and it was not from lack of faith in their Higher Power to help guide them through to recovery. Ultimately, it came down to fear that they would not be able to persevere through the physical “worries” long enough to “get to the other side of the worries” and reach their full recovery.
Four years ago today, on October 19, 2009, about three weeks into doing the Recipe, here is what I wrote in my Parkinson’s Daily Journal:
“10/19/09. 4:00 Monday, oh, boy! It is cold today, 48 degrees. Yesterday evening, my kidneys and lower back began to hurt. I think it was the lentils doing a cleansing. As I was reading about lentils and kidneys, many articles referred to lentils as being used to relieve constipation. Of course, I am having the pleasure of constipation today…go figure. This is very discouraging…Even though each day I feel worse, I refuse to accept that I cannot get better. Maintaining where I am today is not the future I envision…we will see.”
Things really change in four years. Today’s temperature is supposed to be 86 degrees. Oh, yes, and I am 40 months being cured from Parkinson’s. As I have strongly reiterated in the previous five posts, faith is extremely important, and quieting your mind is very important.
There I was with kidney and lower back pain three weeks into doing the Recipe, and how did I look at it? “I think it was the lentils doing a cleansing.” What else was going on? “Of course, I am having the pleasure of constipation today…go figure. This is very discouraging…” The constipation bothered me, and I did not get it under control until late January of 2010, some three months later. However, the point I want to drive home today is where was my mind (the place of fear and FEAR) and where was my heart (the place of faith):
“Even though each day I feel worse, I refuse to accept that I cannot get better. Maintaining where I am today is not the future I envision…we will see.”
I envisioned a better future than where I was, I accepted that each day I was feeling worse, and I refused to accept that I could not get better. There was no fear and there was no FEAR. Why? Because I was strong in my faith. On a coaching call a couple of weeks ago, I was told of a book where the author referred to faith as FAITH, Full Assurance In The Heart. That pretty well sums it up.
If you live your life in your mind, then your fear appears real even though, as stated by Will Smith in After Earth: “Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist.”
If you live in your life in your heart, then faith becomes Full Assurance In The Heart. With this kind of assurance and the fact that it is in your heart, it is with you always…you just have to close your eyes, quiet your mind, and look inside yourself.
So, when you hit a bump in the road, instead of being afraid and looking outside yourself and reaching for something, why not turn your attention inward. Look inside your heart and reach for something…feel the power of faith and hope and joy and compassion and gratitude and happiness and forgiveness and contentment and recovery. Trust in yourself, trust in the Recipe, trust in your Higher Power. Look deep inside yourself, and say:
Parkinson’s is curable.
I am my own Parkinson’s cure.
I am halting, slowing, and reversing the progression of my Parkinson’s.
I am extraordinary.
I am recovery.”
AND, I AM WORTH IT!!!
All my best,