In responding to many of you about pain, I have discussed some points that I would like to share will everybody. Usually, I focus on pain as the “good” pain one experiences when toxins are being cleansed from the body. Today, I want to focus on pain from a different perspective…actually feeling pain and its relationship to the body’s electrical impulses.
Feeling pain means you are feeling something. In a non-Parkinson’s pain sufferer, I believe the thought process is like this: “I feel okay, and when I feel pain, then something is wrong.” I learned, when I was a Parkinson’s sufferer, that the thought process had taken on a whole new life: “There are areas where I feel nothing, but I know that something is wrong with me. When I feel pain, at least I know the electrical impulses are alive and going to the area where I have been feeling nothing.” Much to many of your regret, I also see this as “good” pain.
It means that the electrical impulses are alive and prepared to carry the messages. That is very good news, albeit in some cases, painfully good news. My most overwhelming experience with this was one morning when I felt horrible pain in my left side. My initial panic (yes, I had those, too) was that the Parkinson’s was getting worse. Once I settled down, I remembered years earlier when I had pulled a muscle doing side bends, and this pain was remarkably similar to that pain.
After moving around a little to see when the pain would become pronounced, it hit me: As a result of having had no feeling in my left hip and surrounding muscles, I had pulled a muscle doing the Medical Qigong for Liver, and NOW, for the first time, I was experiencing the pain. As I am certain all of you have experienced, this is a doubled-edged sword. “Yes, I am feeling pain where I have felt nothing for months so I am happy to know the nerves are working, BUT this really hurts.” I know, I know, now it is your turn to smile at me and say, “But Howard, that horrible pain is ‘good’ pain.” Happy we can agree!
The pain disappeared after one day, telling me that although my nerves were working, they were not getting the correct messages flowing on a regular basis. Clearly, I knew that a pulled muscle of that caliber did not go away after one day, so I was mindful of the pulled muscle and I did an abbreviated bend to the right side when doing the Medical Qigong for Liver even though I felt nothing once again.
This experience had re-enforced my faith that recovery could be achieved. Why? Because without my dopamine flowing a little, I would have continued to feel nothing, and now I felt something. However, a little dopamine was not enough and I needed to get more of a flow. So, I circle back around to the importance of the Adrenaline-Dopamine relationship, and the fact that I did the Adrenaline-Dopamine prayer/meditation every day for a few weeks leading up to the day of my full recovery. Click Here to read it again.
Being your own cure takes faith, courage, action, and heart-felt compassion for yourself and for others. Your negative emotions come from the mind (adrenaline). Your positive emotions come from the heart (dopamine). The more you can transform negative emotions into positive emotions, the more you assist your body in finding the correct Adrenaline-Dopamine mix, and the closer you will be to your full recovery.
Transform anger and frustration into acceptance.
Transform fear and worry into faith.
Transform stress and anxiety into calmness and compassion.
Transform your half empty glass into gratitude that your glass is half full.
These are choices. Choose wisely, and choose from your heart.
One day in my recovery, I started viewing the world from my heart with compassion for everybody’s suffering, including mine, instead of viewing the world with judgment and criticism, for others and myself. It felt like the whole world had changed.
And then I realized, I was the one who had changed…and it changed my life forever. And, it helped me finish my recovery.
You can do this, too.
You are worth it!
All my best,