Last week, I posted, “Fighting Parkinson’s, and the power of acceptance.” At the time I posted that blog post, I did not anticipate a part 2. However, there seems to be some confusion over something I wrote in that post, so today I clearing up the confusion.
In the previous post, I discussed acceptance of Parkinson’s, faith of fully recovering one day, and taking action in furtherance of that faith in recovery. Near the end of the post I wrote, “And it is with this level of acceptance that I learned that even the worst pain or stiffness or slowness never lasted more than a day or two.” Apparently, this statement has caused quite a bit of confusion with a number of you. So, here is the clarification.
First, the confusion expressed to me mostly looked like this, “Howard, my symptoms have been bad for a long time. I do not think you understand because your symptoms were bad only for a day of two.”
Second, the clarification. My symptoms were bad for the nine months I had Parkinson’s. I was physically miserable almost all the time, and occasionally I would get an exacerbation of my physically miserable symptoms that caused me to curl up on the floor and cry. If you read the sentence in the post directly after the one I quoted above, you will see that “never lasted more than a day or two” was talking about the seemingly unbearable exacerbation of symptoms.
You may click here and take a look at my post from May 10, 2010, one month prior to my full recovery. My description of my rigidity after 8 months of doing the Recipe will give you a pretty good idea of my level of stiffness throughout my having Parkinson’s.
I would imagine that if you read the May 10, 2010 post on May 10, 2010, you would not have been thinking “Wow, that guy sounds like he will be getting better any day.” In fact, it was during May of 2010 that most people who Sally and I knew were vigorously telling us that I was failing at what I was doing because I looked so bad, and I had better give up on the notion of a recovery and start taking the Parkinson’s medications.
However, the part that they could not see was what was going on with me on the inside…I was healing, soul, mind, and body. When you get to the end of that post, you will see this:
“Having a positive attitude is the key to everything. My mind and body have accepted the pain, so I am not consumed by it every waking moment. Deciding every day that Fighting Parkinson’s drug free is a fight worth fighting is what keeps me going. Quite frankly, getting to spend time with Sally and the children to celebrate Mother’s Day yesterday is really what keeps me going.”
Acceptance. Faith. Action. That is what the ending to that post tells you. It is not something I suddenly thought of last week and put in a post for encouragement. It is something that I lived in my heart of hearts, and I never gave up.
Oh yes, and love. Love melts all blockages. By May of 2010, I was learning to love me. I was fully and unconditionally accepting me. And, I was able to fully and unconditionally be absolutely grateful and filled with love for Sally, Steven, Genevieve, and Victoria. You see, at that point, the love of the five of us was all that mattered…I lost interest in Parkinson’s, and a month later it lost interest in me.
Fighting Parkinson’s is not about putting on boxing gloves and punching it. Fighting Parkinson’s is about acceptance, faith, action, and love. You fight Parkinson’s by creating a vulnerable wide space for your heart to open and your soul to shine and your dopamine to flow.
And whatever misery you face along the way, you smile at it and say, “Okay, apparently this is necessary for my recovery.” If you are doing the Recipe, then this is a truthful statement…whatever is your body’s reaction is necessary in your recovery. That’s right, if you are doing the physical, mental, and spiritual parts of the Recipe, nothing that is happening to your symptoms is bad in your recovery…uncomfortable for you, yes…bad in your recovery, no.
Acceptance. I accept all of you unconditionally as you are.
Faith. I have faith that each and every one of you can have a full recovery just as I did, and Marie did, and Pratima did, and Betty did, and Helen did.
Action. Doing the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery® is the necessary action.
Love. I love you all.
You are worth it!!!
All my best,