Seven years ago, I began doing the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery®. Of course, back then it did not have a name…it was just what I was doing. At the same time, I began keeping a hand-written Parkinson’s Daily Journal. It is time to share my journal with all of you. Here is my October 15, 2009 journal entry, seven years ago today.
“10/15/09. 4:00 up and at ‘em, ha, ha. Started the day by dropping my espresso cup on the kitchen floor. Tile is very unforgiving. Oh, well, I need to pay more attention to what I am doing.
Today is the last day of the 20th year that Sally and I have been married. Every day I love Sally more than the day before. She is my one constant in this ever-changing world.
Once again, I will look at her tomorrow and wish her happy anniversary, and wish there was more I could do for her.
I had black beans and brown rice for lunch. Two hours after lunch I had tremors like last night, bad, bad tremors, and could not sit up.
I discussed this with Sally – maybe the toxin cleansing I am giving my kidneys with the black beans is releasing into my system before leaving. NO black beans tomorrow – let’s see what happens.”
Recently, I was discussing this espresso-dropping issue with a person. I smiled when I read it here in my journal this morning. I explained that a double espresso is about 2.5 ounces and a demitasse cup and saucer are rather small. But, at 4:15am, it seemed like 2.5 gallons of black liquid on a white tile floor. However, this was a big day for me.
Look at my response to dropping the coffee and cup and saucer on the floor: “Oh, well, I need to pay more attention to what I am doing.” This was a major breakthrough. Until this day, when I dropped things, I would get angry with myself and frustrated with myself. If somebody else dropped something, I would say to not worry about it and I would make certain the person was okay.
On this particular morning, finally I had learned the lesson – I needed to be as kind, compassionate, and forgiving with myself as I would have been with anybody else in this particular situation.
I feel the Universe works this way. We keep getting the same lesson again and again and again…UNTIL WE ARE WILLING TO RESPOND IN A DIFFERENT MANNER. After I responded this way to myself, in a kind, compassionate, and forgiving way, the lesson was learned and I did not need to drop anything else.
Click here for a reminder on forgiveness, compassion, and transforming anger.
You are worth it!!!
All my best,
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