Seven years ago, I began doing the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery®. Of course, back then it did not have a name…it was just what I was doing. At the same time, I began keeping a hand-written Parkinson’s Daily Journal. It is time to share my journal with all of you. Here is my October 18, 2009 journal entry, seven years ago today.
“10/18/09. 4:00, cold morning, slow moving. At 10:00 we had the family meeting to tell the children about my Parkinson’s Disease. It went as well as could be expected, and then life goes on – we have a busy household.”
Okay. Sally and I have discussed this day and our memories are very solid on how it went. First, when I told the children I had Parkinson’s Disease, everybody cried…a lot. I would like to put this into perspective.
My mother died in 2007. The medications had taken her mind three years before that. So, in 2004, my children were 13, 11, and 7, and for the next three years their interactions with their grandmother were trying to talk to a person crippled in a wheelchair with Alzheimer’s and Dementia and holding their ear to her mouth as she tried to utter words.
As you can imagine, it paints a rather unpleasant picture when coupled with the fact that their dad now had the same disease.
I then explained to them that I was not going to end up like grandma. I told them that the medications had taken her mind and that I was not going to take the medications. I told them that the current theory of Parkinson’s was incorrect, and that I had put together a holistic healing program that would lead to my recovery.
Please know that these are the same children who for the previous 10 years did Dr. Sha near hand far hand chanting for congestion, had us do acupressure and Jin Shin Jyutsu on them for colds, sore throats, and injuries, and who knew that this type of healing worked.
I told them that they were intelligent children and that they could go on the internet and verify that Parkinson’s did not lead to Alzheimer’s and Dementia, but instead, that it was the long-term usage of the medications that lead to Alzheimer’s and Dementia.
They were satisfied. The crying stopped, the mood changed, and the day went on. None of us were afraid of Parkinson’s.
If you have been following this blog for any length of time, you will know that although I was not afraid of Parkinson’s, I was afraid of life (making a mistake, saying the wrong thing, not being perfect enough, not being in control, etc). Click here for more on fear of life.
The Recipe was my one and only plan, and with no Plan B, I could not afford to be afraid of Parkinson’s. With no Plan B, when my symptoms increased, I had to say, “Okay. This is part of my recovery.”
When you are focused and dedicated to do what you need to do for your health, then you defeat fear. Fear is vapor; it is not real. Faith is real; it is who you are in your heart and soul…the driving force that says, “Yes, I am worth it!”
You are worth it!!!
All my best,
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Faith over fear pays off! For me it was $4o worth yesterday! LOL!!
In order to achieve, you must first believe! I cant wait till the next garbage pick up day! lol
Faith and blessings of life being ones self feeling emitions and starting from where we are right now. Not afraid of failure. Striving towards recovery all gives us strength and enjoyment of life.
Thanks, Howard! This is extremely insightful! I deeply appreciate all that you do for all us.
I notice that my husband, Don, has fewer tremors when he stays calm. Don is working on remaining calm. Stress is evil.
Thanks Howard. Your timing to suggest re-reading your “fear” article was perfect!
So much insight! I now realise how detrimental fear is. The flow of adrenalin. How wise you are Howard! Thank you for your wisdom. Thank You for your caring and your work to make us understand and all your efforts to put us on the way to recovery.