Seven years ago, I began doing the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery®. Of course, back then it did not have a name…it was just what I was doing. At the same time, I began keeping a hand-written Parkinson’s Daily Journal. It is time to share my journal with all of you. Here is my October 25, 2009 journal entry, seven years ago today.
“10/25/09. Up at 4. Today, for the first time it occurred to me that internal tremors probably burn calories. I will research this tomorrow.
We told Sally’s Mother about my Parkinson’s tonight. She seems okay, or at least put on a good face once we went over all of the facts and our plan of attack.”
Over the first three months after I stated getting tremors, I lost 35 pounds. Sally commented to me that if I lost any more weight that I might not have the strength to fight the disease, so I added two mini-meals into my day and I did not lose any more weight.
Today, I need to do something I rarely do. Yesterday, an incredible comment of faith, perseverance, and vulnerability was posted on the blog. Many of you probably have not seen it. I found it to be so inspirational, I am re-posting it here:
“Rainer from Germany says:
October 24, 2016 at 4:40 pm
Relation about a trip from Dresden to Berlin
On last Thursday, 18th of October, I went alone from Dresden (200 km in the South of Berlin) to Berlin, the first big trip in two years. I needed to see my dentist-naturopath to discuss with him how to deal with the tooth decay in my mouth, in a holistic way without drilling. According to the advice of Howard, I tried to not premeditate the difficulties of the trip and, instead, to look forward to enjoyable things and a positive outcome. Still I could not keep me from feeling concerns, and even serious doubts: Will I be able to do such a thing, alone and without company to help me a little? My physical state at home in Dresden is severe and seemed to indicate the opposite: During weeks I had been very debilitated and had had serious gait problems in the house, so I seldom left the house and felt very isolated from people and from life. But then, when the day came, I felt so undernourished socially and so tired of being all the time in that house with my parents, doing every day the same routine, that I firmly decided: No matter what difficulties I will have to face in Berlin, I will accept them and find a way to deal with them.
All I ate in the morning to give me energy for that long day was, at 6 AM, a mixed vege-table drink and, at 7:30 AM, just before leaving the house, a big tablespoon of coconut oil. The next meal would be only at 4 PM, after having seen the dentist. Pleasant ride to Berlin in travel bus: 2 1/2 hours. The bus arrived late in Berlin, so I had to hurry to arrive in time in the dentist’s practice. The bus I had to take to get to the dentist’s practice was just arriving, so I walked as quickly as I could to reach this bus. But suddenly, my leg got trapped in a long dog lead, in front of me I saw a tiny dog, but I couldn’t see the owner at the other end of the dog lead. It was dangerous, I risked to fall unpleasantly. When I, finally, managed to turn around and saw the owner, I got his attention (using my voice) and, eventually, liberated my leg without falling. My bus was about to leave, and I still was behind 20 or 30 m. So I had no choice: I began not to walk quickly, but to run as if I didn’t have Parkinson’s disease, using arms and legs with full power. When I was in the bus and the bus left, I was excited and unbelieving of what happened, and very happy.
This is wonderful empirical proof of what Howard says. The dopamine is there! It is just blocked by an interference of the mind that controls bodily functions it shouldn’t be in control of. Now, when a situation occurs that suddenly interrupts the interference of the mind – a situation of danger and where immediate, rapid action is needed –, the dopa-mine becomes instantly available. This was such a situation, and it felt really great.
I arrived in time in the dentist’s practice. The dentist spoke with me more than an hour and was very supportive concerning my idea of dealing with the tooth decay holistically rather than drilling the teeth. So I left his practice very content, thinking that it was not in vain to do such a long trip in order to meet this extraordinary doctor.
When I found myself in the bus that was to bring me back to the railway station, I still had enough time to get off and to go to my apartment in Berlin where I had to do some things. This meant that I would have to walk at least one and a half kilometre to the apartment and back to the bus stop, an effort that seemed me impossible prior to the trip. But I was in very good mood, and I was able to walk straight away from the bus stop with big strides and much better than I had imagined before: on a main street with many people susceptible to cause stress, but I was not stressed at all, I felt a wonderful joy. I reached my apartment, did what I had to do and went back to the bus stop. When I came to the hairdressing salon where they used to cut me my beard and my hair in 2013 and 2014, when I lived in Berlin, I looked whether the same hairdressers were still there. When I lived in Berlin, these were a man from Kurdistan and two men from Azer-baijan. The man from Kurdistan was just looking out of the window, and I smiled and he gave me back the smile and waved with his hand. First I didn’t stop walking to avoid the effort of starting again to walk. But then I thought: I have not seen them in two years and I will go in and say them hello. They were delighted. We shook hands and had a little chat. I asked whether the man from Azerbaijan was also there who used to cut me my beard and my hair, and he came out and was also very glad. Then the man from Kurdi-stan said a really huge sentence underlining it with a big smile and a heartfelt sign of his thumb: “You speak, you eat and you walk, so you are well. I see you are really well.” No wonder that, when I left the hairdressing salon, I walked again very well to the bus stop.
At the railway station I needed to use the toilet, and I asked a young man to help me change a banknote of €10. Instead, he paid it from his pocket. And then, in the travel bus back to Dresden, when I asked the second driver for a bottle of water, he also gave me back the banknote, smiled, stroked my arm with his hand and said: “Gratis.”
This day showed how true this is what Howard says. Fear is not real: Prior to the trip I expected insurmountable difficulties, instead, it was a day of joy and very good physical performance. A completely other reality than the one I expected! Vulnerability: The uni-verse seemed to think: This man takes risks, he opens all the doors and windows to let in the bad things as well as the good things, so I will reward him and send him only good things: kindness of many people, joy and very good physical performance.
I hesitate a little to send this long text to you. But I want to share my joy about this unexpected, extraordinary day. So here it is.
Congratulations Rainer! You did it. You fought the fear. You ventured out. And when you needed it the most, your dopamine reserve, with no mind to block it, said, “Okay, Rainer, let’s catch that bus!” How wonderful is that. Let’s all take some inspiration from Rainer and let the dopamine flow. You can do it, too!
You are worth it!!!
All my best,
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