There are some of you who are very close to your full recovery and your symptoms have completely gone off of the charts to try to convince you that you are not worthy of your recovery. I have shared my feelings about this with you, and I am now going to express them to the group as these are things that everybody needs to know.
First. YOU ARE WORTHY!!! You are worthy and deserving of your full recovery no matter what your mind chatter says. Your self-judging, self-criticizing mind chatter amounts to nothing more than repeating to yourself what others in your life have said to you and about you. They are not your words, but they have become your feelings. Let them go…they do not belong to you and you do not need them.
Your mind chatter came from others: “You are not smart enough; you are not pretty enough; you are not fast enough, etc.” I think you get the point. Somebody else told you these things and you took them on board. Even though the other person no longer is around or no longer is telling you these things, you continuously are telling them to yourself. It is time to let them go. If you want your full recovery, you must do this. Detach yourself from the negative mind chatter from the past.
Second. YOU ARE WORTHY!!! Toward the end of my full recovery, my symptoms went out of control as well. However, once I found love for myself and started giving gratitude each day for being alive with my soul in a human body, even a human body experiencing Parkinson’s symptoms, everything changed. After that, when somebody would ask how I was doing, I would respond, “I am doing great” because “I am” was describing my heart and soul, my essence, my core, the “me” deep inside me that I could not describe, but could feel.
I was able to remove myself from the physical. Here are some strong “I am’s” to assist you in removing yourself from the physical. Feel the “I am” deeply in the essence of your being:
I am abundant health.
I am joy.
I am gratitude.
I am happiness.
I am love.
I am forgiveness.
I am compassion.
These are the things that were in you the day you were born, and they never have left. If you ever have held or have been around a newborn baby, you know this is true. A newborn baby is pure love, pure essence of being, pure vulnerability, pure radiance…AND SO ARE YOU! These things never have left you. YOU ARE WORTHY!!!
However, I feel there is something inside you, like what was inside me, that is not giving you permission, not allowing you, to be free. When you reach your beautiful spiritual place, it hammers you physically as if to say that you are not allowed to have your full recovery because you are not worthy and deserving of your full recovery. So, here is an extra version of the above to retrain your mind to accept your radiance and accept your full recovery:
I am abundant health. I am allowed to be abundantly healthy.
I am joy. I am allowed to be joyful.
I am gratitude. I am allowed to be grateful.
I am happiness. I am allowed to be happy.
I am love. I am allowed to be loving.
I am forgiveness. I am allowed to be forgiving.
I am compassion. I am allowed to be compassionate.
Repeat these relentlessly, particularly when your symptoms are acting up. The way to re-train the mind is to create new electrical impulses so that the new electrical impulses become your new habitual brain patterns. This requires relentless repetition. Your parents kept asking you “did you brush your teeth” until the day it clicked and you brushed your teeth without anybody having to ask you again. It became your habit. This is the same. Repetition creates new brain pattern “habits.”
Now, write them down, or type them, or dictate them into a text document. This will help you own them, claim them as yours, and to absolutely, undeniably KNOW that you are worthy! Do this every day! Some of these will resonate with you, and some of these will make you feel uncomfortable. Recite the resonating ones for reinforcement. Recite the uncomfortable ones to help you work out why they are uncomfortable and to work out the issues. If you want your full recovery, you must do this.
When your family, friends, or helpers are helping you, it serves them too. They feel love and compassion for you and they feel the joy of being able to assist you because you are their friend and you need their help. It is no different than how each and every one of you would act if the roles were switched. Keep accepting that you are worthy and deserving of their assistance. Make this your new habit as well. YOU ARE WORTHY!!!
When you can look at yourself and see yourself, your beautiful, loving, radiant soul, in the same way the rest of us love you when we look at you or when we read your words in the comments on this blog, and you can truly know that you are worthy and deserving of all of this love, it will go a long way in helping you to give yourself the same love and truly, deeply in the depths of your essence, to love yourself. And remember, love melts all blockages.
YOU ARE WORTHY!!!
Here are some more “I am’s” that we all can chant together…relentlessly:
“Parkinson’s is curable.
I am my own Parkinson’s cure.
I am slowing, halting, and reversing the progression of my Parkinson’s.
I am extraordinary.
I am recovery.
AND, I AM WORTH IT!!!”
I love you all.
All my best,