The ego mind looks to the past. It is a function of what already has occurred, and it simply cannot see how wonderful life can be in the future. It fights you because it knows when you open your heart and soul in faith, you surrender the ego mind.
It is the lack of surrender of the ego mind attachment to the disease that keeps you where you are. If you look at the end of the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery®, you can see where I had to surrender my ego mind attachment to the disease to finish my recovery. “Dear God, I surrender my ego to you. I surrender my attachment to my Parkinson’s Disease to you. I am not afraid anymore….”
What was I afraid of? Everything! I was afraid of “what comes next.” Essentially, fear of life. Life presented too many opportunities to make a mistake, say the wrong thing, worry what others were thinking, etc.
My ego mind kept saying “stay where you are, it is miserable here, but at least you know what to expect each day. How can you trust that if you take the leap of faith that things will be better.” Fear, fear, and of course, FEAR! (False Evidence Appearing Real). That is the way of the ego mind.
It is why when I finally said, “Okay God, I surrender to you. Take me, all of me,” the “me” was my ego mind. The ego mind cannot create a future it has not seen. Since it cannot see the future like God can see the future, the ego mind keeps us locked up in fear of surrendering our future to God.
This makes no sense because God is in charge whether we surrender to God or not. The surrender of the ego mind opens the heart and soul to all of God’s graces and blessings of love, joy, gratitude, and yes, yes, yes…RECOVERY! Know it, and be it.
Surrendering the ego mind is not giving up your free will. Simply put, surrendering the ego mind is not trying to control everything by trying to impose your will over God’s will. It has to do with acceptance, surrender, and gratitude.
Acceptance. Surrender. Gratitude.
1. Acceptance. I accept what is happening in my life. God’s will.
2. Surrender. I surrender. Nobody owes me an explanation why whatever is happening in my life actually is happening. God’s will.
3. Gratitude. I am grateful for my life, so I am grateful for what is happening in my life. God’s will.
Combination of the three. “Thank you, God. I am grateful for my life, so I am grateful for what is happening in my life. I will take it from here.” Your free will. You decide what to do next, what solution is needed if any, where to take it from here.
Your recovery is inside you already. Use the word “I” to refer to your spirit, your soul. Have faith in God and help your soul grow in abundance to clean out the toxicity of the mind and body:
“I am better already. Thank you, God. I am grateful.”
Have these words on your lips and in your heart and soul at all times. They represent trust and faith in God, and they squash your ego mind into submission to God’s healing power.
You can do this.
You are worth it!!!
All my best,
Note: In case you missed the exciting news in the previous blog post, Elaine J. had her full recovery. Click here to read all about it!