From time to time people have commented to me that it is hard for them to picture me with Parkinson’s. I am healthy, smile all the time, and I am filled with love, joy, compassion and gratitude. Today, I will prove to all of you that once upon a time, I was just like you.
Twelve years ago, I began doing the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery®. Of course, back then it did not have a name…it was just what I was doing. At the same time, I began keeping a hand-written Parkinson’s Daily Journal. Here is my September 30, 2009 journal entry, twelve years ago today.
“09/30/09. Got up at 4. This is my worst day so far. Hard to get off the bed and whole body is tight and aching. Hard to get dressed. Hard to get downstairs. I follow the same routine every morning – out of bed, get dressed, go downstairs, use bathroom and put on contacts, go to kitchen and turn on espresso machine. I look at the clock as the machine takes 10 minutes to warm up.
Every day the clock shows 4:04 or 4:05. Today it showed 4:08. I am hopeful that the slowdown is a result of the Qigong performed yesterday. I have found that releasing toxins always makes me worse before I get better. I can only hope this will be the same.
Performed the Kidney Qigong. Kidneys are aching, which is a good thing.
At 10am, I started feeling a little lightheaded so I ate a banana and the extra vegetables Sally set aside after she prepared our lunch. She told me they could be my “elevens-ees.” They were my “second breakfast.” [“elevens-ees” and “second breakfast” are Lord of the Rings references to extra meals].”
I have to tell you all that I laughed out loud when I read this today. Then I read it to Sally and she laughed out loud, too. In the beginning of this journal entry, I wrote, “This is my worst day so far.” When I woke up that morning, I had been doing the Recipe two days only. What was I expecting after two days? To be feeling better? Oh, my!
And, it was a big eye-opener to read how much of my perfectionist adrenaline-mind was controlling me in the early parts of my recovery: “I follow the same routine every morning – out of bed, get dressed, go downstairs, use bathroom and put on contacts, go to kitchen and turn on espresso machine. I look at the clock as the machine takes 10 minutes to warm up. Every day the clock shows 4:04 or 4:05. Today it showed 4:08.”
So, my friends, feel free to laugh with me, and to laugh at me. Also, depending upon your own personal idiosyncrasies, maybe you will choose to laugh at yourself as well. I highly recommend it as it is very liberating to not take ourselves too seriously.
As you can see, we are no different. It could not be any more clear that in my private Parkinson’s Daily Journal, I felt the need to be perfect even when nobody would be reading it except me.
I also suffered from a ridiculously insufferable ego mind. For the ten years prior to having Parkinson’s, we did holistic healing around the house, and that is part of why I knew that I could heal from Parkinson’s. Holistic healing and Traditional Chinese Medicine work — you have to choose the correct things to do, and you have to be willing to put in the time, day after day to lay a strong foundation and build a recovery upon that foundation.
That is part of why my own words thrown in my face today made me laugh. Even with the knowledge that healing from Parkinson’s was going to take a long time, at the beginning of the third day, I wrote, “This is my worst day so far.”
In the end, I was blessed with the happiest of endings. Since you can see that in the beginning that I was just like you, then I invite you to know that in the end, you can be just like me…blessed with the happiest of endings, a full recovery from Parkinson’s.
You will be healthy, smile all the time, and be filled with love, joy, compassion and gratitude. Plus, you will be able to preface your own hero’s journey story with the words that raise the eyebrows of your listeners, “When I had Parkinson’s….”
You can do it!
You are worth it!!!
All my best,