I have mentioned in the past that people with Parkinson’s tend to be the kindest and most compassionate people I have ever met. However, the kindness and compassion is for others, reserving judgment and criticism for themselves.
Twelve years ago, I began doing the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery®. At the same time, I began keeping a hand-written Parkinson’s Daily Journal. Here is an excerpt from my October 15, 2009 journal entry, twelve years ago today.
“10/15/09. 4:00 up and at ‘em, ha, ha. Started the day by dropping my espresso cup on the kitchen floor. Tile is very unforgiving. Oh, well, I need to pay more attention to what I am doing.…”
On a recent call, I was discussing this espresso-dropping issue. I smiled when I read it here in my journal this morning. I explained that a double espresso is about 2.5 ounces and that a demitasse cup and saucer are rather small. But, at 4:15am, it seemed like 2.5 gallons of black liquid on a white tile floor. However, this was a big day for me.
Look at my response to dropping the coffee and cup and saucer on the floor: “Oh, well, I need to pay more attention to what I am doing.” This was a major breakthrough. Until this day, when I dropped things, I would get angry with myself and frustrated with myself. If somebody else dropped something, I would say to not worry about it and I would make certain the person was okay.
On this particular morning, finally I had learned the lesson – I needed to be as kind, compassionate, and forgiving with myself as I would have been with anybody else in this particular situation.
I feel the Universe works this way. We keep getting the same lesson again and again and again…UNTIL WE ARE WILLING TO RESPOND IN A DIFFERENT MANNER. After I responded this way to myself, in a kind, compassionate, and forgiving way, the lesson was learned, so I did not need to drop anything else, and I did not drop anything else for the remainder of my recovery.
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You are worth it!!!
All my best,