Recently, a topic has come up on coaching calls, and I want to share it with you. Some people who are close to finishing their recoveries have been hit by fear. The question I have asked is “What do you fear will occur when you are fully recovered?”
If you have Parkinson’s, then your mind has gotten used to having Parkinson’s. In fact, many people have told me that the first thought they have when a symptom subsides is
”when is it coming back?” This is a simple reflection of the mind’s expectation.
For many, including me when I had Parkinson’s, the mind says, “you understand life with Parkinson’s, so why risk the unknown…life without Parkinson’s?” Ultimately, the discussion on the coaching calls took us to a blog post I wrote seven weeks after my full recovery.
Here is an excerpt:
“I have not written in two weeks because I have been trying to figure out how to express this point as it relates to me, and to Parkinson’s in general, without being misunderstood. Here goes.
In a previous blog entry, I discussed finally “letting go” of Parkinson’s, and I have been symptom free ever since. Here is an excerpt on the point I am trying to make:
“Dear God, I surrender my ego to you. I surrender my attachment to my Parkinson’s Disease to you. I am not afraid anymore. I no longer fear Parkinson’s. I no longer fear the scorn I may face by being cured from a disease the experts say there is no cure. I no longer fear the people who may say I was misdiagnosed or that I faked having the disease. I am surrendering my ego to you, that part of me that felt I needed to remain attached to Parkinson’s because the experts say once you have Parkinson’s you always have Parkinson’s. I am forgetting about my old self (Parkinson’s) and stepping into my new self (No Parkinson’s).”
I needed to let go of fear, [False Evidence Appearing Real], in order to be healed. By letting go of these fears, I was no longer attached to the disease, or dis-ease, that was running, and ruining, my life. What I have learned over the last seven weeks is that some of the things I feared have come true, but they have had no impact on me whatsoever because I let them go. I have had to face the scorn of people who do not believe I could have had Parkinson’s because I am claiming to be symptom free from an incurable disease. Although a little disheartening to hear such things, it has had no negative impact on me because seven weeks ago I let go of FEAR.”
In the blog post that followed the above-quoted post, I wrote this:
“Yesterday, I went for my six-month follow up with my Parkinson’s doctor. He put me through all of the Parkinson’s tests and I passed them all. I asked him if it was okay to put on my blog that he agreed I was symptom free, and he said I should let all of you know that my neurologist gave me the Parkinson’s tests, and much to his surprise, he was unable to detect a single Parkinson’s symptom. I now have received my doctor’s confirmation that I am symptom free.”
As you can see, my mind had misrepresented my future in an effort to dissuade me from my full recovery. In the post about the neurologist visit, what I had feared (telling me I was misdiagnosed or faked having the disease) did not occur. In fact, he confirmed that his original Parkinson’s diagnosis was accurate, and then said that the Parkinson’s was no longer there.
The thing my mind simply did not understand was this:
It is not that life will not have difficulties after the full recovery, but when you open your heart and soul and remove fear and FEAR, you are in such a loving, joyful, grateful, and compassionate state of being that you are in the best position to deal with everything that arrives on your path for the rest of your life.
Okay everybody, it is time for you to shed the fear and FEAR lurking in your minds, and open your hearts and souls to the opportunities that await you in Recoveryville. The train from Parkinson’sville to Recoveryville will be leaving the station momentarily. Why not climb on board! There is enough room for all of you!!
You are worth it!!!
All my best,