As all of you know, the current medical model of Parkinson’s does not include being cured. In fact, it does not include slowing, halting, or reversing the disease. It only includes mitigation of symptoms for a window of time. If you want to be cured of Parkinson’s, you have to realize that you are your own cure, and then give yourself permission to be your own cure.
Yes, the Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery® is your road map of a cure, but you have to take action and do the Recipe, the soul, mind, and body healing — this means that you are your own cure!
Let’s start permission early in the blog post. Here is the affirmation:
“I am allowed to be my own cure.”
Being responsible for being your own cure is daunting for some people. We have become reliant upon others to “cure” us from our maladies, so when the others say, “There is no cure for your Parkinson’s,” what other choice do we have?
We either accept what the others say that we cannot be cured and then do nothing, or we say, “I refuse to accept the status quo. I am allowed to accept the diagnosis and I am allowed to deny the prognosis. I have the power to heal myself…and I will!” This makes you your own cure.
Fourteen years ago today, the tremors arrived and my life changed. It was time to come out of years of denial that nothing was going wrong with my physical body, and I had to accept the reality of the situation whether I liked it or not. Sad to say, at that time in my life, accepting reality when I did not like the reality in front of my eyes had not been one of my best abilities.
In the beginning of my journey after I had researched Parkinson’s, I knew a handful of important things:
1. When my mother died two-and-one-half years prior to me getting the disease, she was mostly in a wheel-chair, had a nurse-caregiver as well as my dad as a caregiver, and she had lost her mind to the medications three years prior to losing her life.
2. The medications had taken my mother’s mind, and they had not prevented her from reaching wheel-chair-bound physical disability.
3. The liver was negatively impacted as well as the kidneys.
With all of this in mind, I knew medications were not for me. That was my choice. My fear was not Parkinson’s. My fear was not creating my own path. My fear was the known path…my mother’s treatment path, which still is the current medical standard treatment path for Parkinson’s, symptoms mitigation only.
So, I sat down with Sally. I outlined my treatment plan (the Recipe) and told her I knew I would fully recover. However, I did add this to the conversation: “Even though I have complete faith and I know in my heart I will recover some day, if I am wrong and the doctors are right, then at the end of the path, I think I will be completely paralyzed.”
Sally’s response was instant, and it was simple: “It is just a body. You won’t lose your mind like your mother, so I won’t lose you. If you can tolerate what the disease dishes out to you, I am all in.” And off the cliff we went into the abyss. Fourteen years ago, I gave myself permission to be my own cure.
“I am allowed to be my own cure.”
I share this with you so that what I am going to tell you next will make sense. With the Recipe Plan A only, I was forced to see the silver lining in every cloud. That was not my normal way of being pre-Parkinson’s. However, the normal-way-of-being-Howard is the guy who got Parkinson’s, so feeling, thinking, and acting outside of what had been my norm seemed like a good idea. I recommend it to all of you.
Make it a game for yourself. I will provide you some examples of what I mean, and you all are bright enough to run, or shuffle, with it from there:
1. Pain. If I had pain in an area where I previously felt nothing, instead of being angry about the pain or fearful of what it might mean (i.e. Parkinson’s getting worse — isn’t that what every change in your symptoms you do not like ultimately adds up to in your mind?), I would say something like, “This is great! Pain means that the electricity is flowing from my brain to the part of my body that hurts or I would not be experiencing pain. This must mean all that stuff in my brain that the doctors say is dead is not really dead. Thank you for the healing.”
2. Stiffness, fatigue, and slowness. “My body is using my available energy to open blockages, so it is making me more stiff and fatigued and slower than usual. It will improve when the blockages are opened. This is great! Thank you for the healing.”
3. Increased tremors. “Wonderful. Tremors are created when electricity hits blockages or escapes from the protective neural covering. Increased tremors means I am creating more energy in my low-energy brain, so I shake more. This is great! Thank you for the healing.”
I think you get the point. Everything was “great!” And, I gave gratitude: “Thank you for the healing.” Why? Because that is exactly what was happening in my body. I was doing the Recipe, so every body reaction represented healing, something necessary for my recovery.
Eventually, I did not even look for the silver linings…I accepted that the silver lining were there simply because I was doing the Recipe. Every change in symptoms was met with: “Thank you for the healing.”
In the end, I must have been correct…apparently, there was nothing to be afraid of and everything that was happening was “great!” and was necessary for my recovery. I was my own cure.
I know, some of you are thinking, “Howard may not have taken medications, but he sounds like he still lost his mind.” True. In a way, I did lose my mind…I had to follow the quote I have posted in the past:
“Sometimes you have to lose your mind before you come to your senses.”
-Socrates, Dan Millman’s Way of the Peaceful Warrior-
Here is the mind I had to lose. I had to lose my Adrenaline-mode mind. I had to lose my I-need-to-do-everything-perfectly mind. I had to lose my I-need-to-be-in-control mind. I had to lose my you-are-not-worth-it mind. I had to lose my it-is-not-okay-to-like-yourself-or-love-yourself mind. When I lost that mind, then, and only then, did I completely come to my senses.
And then, it seemed like the whole world had changed. Actually, all that had changed was me. I started viewing the world from my compassionate heart instead of a judgmental mind, and there I have stayed.
Be your own cure! “I am allowed to be my own cure.”
Each and every one of you has it within you to cure yourself. Challenge yourself or make it a game — focus on positive thoughts, focus on silver linings. If you do this, you will begin to feel it. Once you feel it, you will realize how good it feels. Once you realize how good it feels, you will want to do it again and again and again.
Make your response to every symptom change: “Thank you for the healing.”
And then, one day, you will awaken and say, “Wow, I must have been correct…apparently, there was nothing to be afraid of and everything that was happening was “great!” I was my own cure.” That will be a day you will remember forever.
The Parkinson’s Cure. Be it!
You can do this!
Please post a comment below by copying and pasting these words:
My brain cells are alive. My dopamine reservoir is full. I am doing the Recipe, and my recovery from Parkinson’s is happening. I am allowed to be my own cure. I am extraordinary. I am recovery. I AM WINNING! AND, I AM WORTH IT!!!
Yes you are! Each and every one of you is winning and you are worth it!!
All my best,